he says he keeps waiting for me to be mad

well, im not mad. im not going to get mad. im sad. i have been sad and im going to be sad.
im not sad that he slept with her. im sad that it obviously meant something to him. im sad that he didnt tell me. im sad that it will obviously continue to mean something to him, that that something is what hed pick if he could. 
but apparently its only a worry if im mad.
dont worry babe im not going to get mad.