being alone is honestly the hardest thing for me

i just cant escape the thoughts when im alone. even if im unhappy when theres someone else around, it is NEVER as bad as when im alone. i know it isnt fair to tray because i feel like i can be myself around him, but im not alone, so its better, and so i always want him around. i need to figure out some way to fix this so it doesnt become a problem, too much of each other